How I died inside

You brought me here, So I trusted you,

You showed me the dreams, beyond my view,

Enchanted and thrilled was I, Experiencing everything new,

And most importantly, to be a part of you.

When you yelled, that you never chose me,

I thought you were angry, those words never meant to be,

But unintentionally, you see,

those words were sinking, into me.

Everything i did, was to make you happy,

To feel the pride, to have had me,

Every sacrifice I made, Never scared me,

as my destination was the words that said, you were proud of me.

But when the time came, for you to show me,

The love and care, I thought was meant for me,

You cold bloodily, back stabbed me,

Killing my dreams, and the future I dreamed.

When I shouted and yelled, at the betrayal you did to me,

you said my dreams, which you once showed me,

were wrong and that , was the reason for this pain in me,

Because I will never, achieve the dreams I thought was meant to me.

You told me I was worthless, and a curse to anyone who have me,

You said I look hideous, in comparison to those beautiful maidens around me,

You said I was a shame, my talents, for a maiden was never meant to be.

You said I was a disgrace, for the first time I complains against your words for me.

But the the partner you found, in exchange to my dreams,

took time, but ultimately understood me,

and had to face , the pain and scars you gave to me,

But held my hand tight promising never to let go me.

My scars and bruises, I will never forget,

And you one day will live to regret,

For a beautiful creation you could have spawned,

But used her and saw only her flaws.

* inspired by a toxic parenting victim's diary write up.

Feelings

Unconditional love

Horizon and beyond

The sky was orange with streaks of black parting away,

I perched on a swing staring at the horizon that lay,

It is so beautiful even though I see it every day,

I wonder if I could ever reach the sun, if I may.

I see silhouettes of birds that are flying away,

Singing their chimes of freedom as their wings sway,

I stare at them with star studded eyes and a pounding heart,

Wondering how it would be to fly with them, being their part.

I live in a cage that is golden and grand,

Sparkles here and there, hanging above the land,

I get fruits and nuts, grains and water,

Not once in my life have I ever known hunger.

People stare at me for my beautiful colors,

And for how vibrant and bright are my feathers,

To them I am unique and deserve to be protected,

But what do they know about my desire beyond restrictions.

Day after Day, I fly up to my sparkly door,

Wishing for it to be opened for once and for all,

Disappointed I fly back to my swing,

Staring back again at the silhouettes of birds flying.

Not gold, not diamonds, not comfort, not treat,

Nothing can take away my desire to be free,

To race with the wind and with birds to sing,

And reach that horizon; I stare at without a blink.

One day I know I will reach that sky,

And nothing will stop me from living a dream that’s mine,

I just have to keep trying for that day to come,

A hope that had once died has now life in it at least some.

innocent smile

A flower to wither…..

From a bud, I bloomed to a beautiful flower,

Red were my petals and pretty was my color,

Only the rays of sun touched me ever,

Not a bug or a bee was ever my lover.

I looked at the world with a beautiful smile,

Who among them, would truly be mine,

Who would have his eyes on me?

And embrace me with all my beauty.

And finally one day, they bought me a lover,

He wasn’t a rose, but bigger and brighter,

He stood beside me with all his pride,

Looking down at me, saying, “Now you are mine.”

His thorny vines covered my leaves and stem,

Pulling me closer and hurting me with them,

“You don’t need the sun” to me, he said,

“You need me, nothing else instead!”.

My colors slowly, started fading away,

My smile was lost somewhere in dismay,

Tears of blood trickled down my cheeks,

Yet all expected me to smile in glee.

How can I smile, when I am so much in pain?

And why is my pain, to the world, a shame?

Why are they deafened to my shrieks of pain?

Why can’t they see me drowning in dismay?

Lifelessly I stood, trapped, beside him,

All my color and smile darkened in anguish,

Silently praying for that day to arrive,

When I would wither away, beyond anyone’s pride.

My latest art...

A tiny little dew drop

I am a tiny little dew drop, on a leaf of the tree,

I was born on a cold night, when the sun was inside the sea.

Dark was it around, when I opened my eyes,

I waited for the sun to rise, to gawk at the world in its light.

I fought through the darkness and the chill it brought,

“It will pass anyhow, for the light to come in” I thought.

Every passing second, I spend that night in the cold,

Felt longer than an eternity, and chill so much to freeze my soul.

It was dark around, and nothing stood clear in my sight,

Just a few sparkles here and there, I could see in the white moonlight.

It seemed like hues of white, on a dark beautiful canvas,

Similar to a magical scenery, but with a nip of melancholy.

The moonlight touched me too, and I sparkled like the moon stone,

But no matter how unique I was, I felt being a part of a mourn.

There was sadness, darkness and chill with silence existing,

Regardless it beauty, the hope for the light in me was persisting.

Finally the time came, and came the first ray of light,

The yellow ribbon of sparkles was much more magical than the moonlight.

The melancholy changed to an emotion of glee,

The chirping of birds and there was happiness in everything I see.

The dark canvas was filled with colours,

So much of them that to count them, would take me hours.

A slight warm breeze took the chill away,

Shaking the tree and the leaf I lay.

I slipped through its tip and on the ground I fell,

Not sparing a moment, inside the ground I went.

It was at that moment of time, was something I realised,

I was meant for the darkness and not for the light.

I was the tear drop of the gloom that spread through the night,

I wasn’t meant for the glee that prevailed in the day with its light.

 I exist in gloom and I cease to subsist in glee,

I am a tiny dew drop, and this was a story about me.

Truly mine!

I stood there alone in the beautiful night sky,

Among the stars twinkling their gleaming lights,

Wishing to be loved for once in my entire life,

For I have been alone till now since the beginning of time.

I shown myself as a bright ball in white,

And touched everything with my icy cold light,

Trying to feel the warmth residing in them all,

The warmth of love was what I was searching for.

From the waves that charged to embrace the shore,

To the winds that kissed the trees some more,

Love brimmed everywhere to everyone I saw,

Only I didn’t feel the warmth of love at all.

My reflection in the waters seed romance in the air,

And I sense the warmth two lover souls share,

I beam brightly, to be a part of their longing affair,

Because I know how it feels when the feeling is not there.

As I forgot myself in my thoughts of despair,

A soothing warmth, I felt from somewhere,

Surprised and glee I turned around to see,

A humongous cloud was then embracing me.

The feeling was beautiful or even beyond may be,

I wonder why all this while I didn’t see,

Even while I searched both the land and sea,

This cloud has always been there beside me.

I looked into his eyes, searching feelings as mine,

And he looked at me, with the most beautiful smile,

Enchanting was it or dreaming was I?

I was more than glad I found someone truly mine.

Aquamarine crystals

Beyond the beautiful mountains of Zorpus was an incredible village of Gladeria. A village beyond which, the world of magic began. Unknown to the mortal world, we have been living in this beautiful surreal dimension since our ancestors created it. We were taught that the mortal world was like the flowers of the banished valley, that sparkled as diamonds in the moonlight but a touch of it can curse you to live in agony for life. All the magical creatures, the mortal world believed as non-existent, existed in our world; from the good to the bad and the majestic to the petite. We all lived in harmony abiding to the rules set by our 3 wizard mages who lives for eternity protecting this world from the time known to the time beyond.

My name is Claudia and I am a happy young girl from the village of Gladeria. My parents were ‘Nature whisperers’. They possessed the power to talk to nature. We magical beings inherit basic magical powers from our parents and attend magic academies to develop our other abilities. It is easiest to specialize in our inherited abilities but excelling in other magical powers, is not impossible though difficult. Excelling all the magical abilities was quite an impossible task to be attained in our 200 years of average life span. It is only our 3 wizard mages, who could attain that till date.

I lost my parents in an epidemic that broke out when I was 5. Though I miss them from the bottom of my heart, my village people looked after me with all the love a child can imagine. I too helped them with all my might and loved them back with all my heart. Though I loved everyone, Mrs. Gumble held a special place in my heart. She is always my little “Granny’O”. Oh! The flowers in her garden were darlings too. The ‘Golden Chimes’ flowers always sang enchanting chimes for me and the ‘Lover soul’ flower, he is such a charmer! But I was always enthralled to talk to the ‘Oracle’ flower. She always told me about how my life would change when I meet the love of my life. I feel a tingling from inside my heart every time I hear that. I truly wonder how he would be…..

The magical academy of Zorelia is the biggest magic academy in our world. Our 3 wizard mages are directly involved in this academy. Lucky me, I got an admission there as well!

After leaving my Gardenia behind, I travelled to the academy in a flying carriage from my village. On a huge cliff residing in the middle of the enchanted sea of pearls, stood this humongous castle structure that had a mystique air to it. As soon as we landed at the entrance gate, little trolls rolled next to our carriage asking for my admission papers. They were this small, round, grey creatures that were so cute that I couldn’t help a chuckle. Clearing my papers I was allowed to enter the premises. Waving bye to Mrs. Gumble who came to see me off, I took my first step to my future. I was very much tensed but at the same time happy. Through with all the formalities, I was directed to the Girl’s Dorm to settle down. I was assigned a room with a balcony facing the beautiful sea.

The next day, it was a fresh morning and I reached my class. Among all the other fellow students I noticed a boy sitting by the window seat gazing at the waves crashing on to the cliff. The morning sun rays illuminated his elegant features and made him look radiant. His emerald green almond eyes sparkled like the dews in the sun rays and his coal black hair falling on his forehead could just enhance his elegance. I could sense a slight sorrow in the depth of his eyes searching for happiness. Like a spell of magic I was drawn to him and before I realized I was sitting next to him.

“Hello, I am Claudia and you are?” I introduced myself with an intention to strike a friendship. With a short gape at me he just resumed back to his gaze outside. A little disappointed and wondering why, I continued, ‘I am sorry to have disturbed you, I just wanted to be your friend.”  But this time he did not ignore me. He replied, “I am Ryo, and you wouldn’t want a friend like me.”

Taken aback by his words, I continued, “Why so?”

Ryo just gazed at me and said “What you see may not be” and again looked away. Somewhere within those words, I felt the sorrow I saw in his eyes. I was tempted to know more about him. Many came in trying to talk to him but his cold replies fled everyone away except me. I very badly wanted to be his friend; I wanted to be the one he would share his joy and sorrow with. Though I greeted him every day and tried to start a conversation with him, he always ignored me. But one day as I wished him a good morning, he stared at me for a moment and asked, “Why do u want to be my friend?” With a smile I meekly replied, “Because I believe we are destined to be so.” He just gave me a confused look and walked away. But the next day when I greeted him yet another time, he greeted me back taking my name. I was happy and astonished at the same time. From then on Ryo and me  slowly became good friends.

Ryo was a wonderful guy with a heart as pure as love. Words weren’t his best companion but he always conveyed his true feelings in the bluntest manner possible. His earnestness in his words had started to sink in me, wavering my heart deep within. Every second I spend with him were memories I cherished in a special chamber in my heart.

One morning, as I stood in my balcony to watch the first ray of the sun touch the sea, I noticed someone walking from the waters to the shore. In the soft morning light, I could easily make out the persona of the person walking out of the waters. “Ryo?” I wondered in confusion. He looked tired as he dragged himself to the shore. “What is Ryo doing in the waters this early in the morning?” I wondered as I dazed at him dragging himself to walk towards the Boy’s Dorm. That day throughout the class, I watched Ryo who looked tired and distracted. After our academic sessions were over, I went up to Ryo to enquire.

“Hi Ryo, what’s up with you, you were all distracted in the class today and besides, you look tired.”

In a sudden confusion, he averted his eyes and replied, “I couldn’t sleep well yesterday.”

I and Ryo hadn’t become very close friends yet, but I was the only one he interacted with. May be I was just a friend to him but to me he was dear and so I was concerned about him.

“You know Ryo, wouldn’t it be obvious that you couldn’t sleep yesterday.” I spoke staring into his deep green eyes.

With an astonished look on his face Ryo asked me what I exactly meant. To have grabbed his attention, I decided to confront him.

“What were you doing in the sea early in the morning today? You know we are not supposed to go there after the sun set, don’t you?

Ryo’s face fell pale. All his colours had drained off. He furrowed his brows instantly, brushing me off in a rude tone. “It none of you business, keep yourself out of my life!” and he ran off towards the Boy’s Dorm.

Honestly, I expected him to reply as that to be a boys daring challenge or something of that sort, but Ryo’s reaction was clearly indicating something serious. I wanted to get to the bottom of it. It must be my intuitions working but I sensed that this act had a connection to the ever living sorrow I sense in his eyes.

I decided to take a stroll in the slight stretch of woods, lining the shore. Using my powers as a ‘Nature whisperer’ I spoke to every little flower and trees in the area and was shocked to know that Ryo went to the waters almost every night talking to a mystique lady figure emerging from the waters. They even told me that they saw a mysterious beast lurking in the waters a certain times. I was concerned; worried about Ryo and what disturbed me the most was the mystique lady figure.

That night I decided to spy on him and hid in the woods, lining the shore. After a while I saw Ryo walking by, to the shore. As he approached the rocks, I saw a beautiful lady emerging from the waters, her red wavy free flowing hair sparkled the stars above. Her beautiful eyes were so deep that the entire ocean would fill in them. She was as beautiful as a sea siren. I felt a rage in me rising. Who is she? How does she know Ryo? Why does he go to see her every night? I wanted to know. Without a thought I ran up to him. Sensing someone coming, Ryo turned around to see me. The woman’s gaze though shifted to me, her expression was unchanged and was pleasant as earlier.

Without saying a word I stood there staring at Ryo while he went pale and stunned. The mystique lady broke the silence saying, “She might be your answer Ryo.” I didn’t understand what was going on but all I knew was that I was hurt, bad enough for the tears to run down my eyes. Ryo seemed hesitant; he looked here and there with his gaze down to the ground. Finally, my emotions reached its limit; I couldn’t take it any long.

“Ryo, I know I don’t mean anything to you, but I care. I care about you, allot!’ I was surprised at my own words. I had this sudden urge to protect him from some unknown bad he was undergoing. I couldn’t hold back the tears that gushed out. With teary eyes, I feel on my knees. “I want to protect you Ryo! I don’t know if I can but let me at least try!” I couldn’t take it any longer; I covered my face and let my emotions bleed from my heart until something warm touched me. When I raised my head I saw Ryo kneeling down in front of me, holding my arms. His eyes were teary and he had a pained expression on.

“Claudia, I know I have been cold to you, but trust me, it’s only because I care. Don’t involve with me Claudia. You deserve better”

“NO!” I shouted aloud. I never knew I could sound so too. “I don’t want anyone else. Why don’t you understand! I will do all I can. I swear upon the magic I inherit.” May be it’s the determination I had in my eyes; Ryo suddenly embraced me with all his strength. Sighing in resignation he released me and said, “I will tell you everything”

Ryo told me his story, the reason behind the sorrow he posses. Ryo was an adopted child. His parents found him abandoned in the world of mortals. Having no children, they decided to adopt the child. Without anyone knowing they smuggled him to our world of magic. They named him Ryo and loved him dearly. They had the power to control elements of nature like fire, water, air and such. They were called “Rudiments” as they could touch the basic elements of the nature. Suspicion fell on Ryo as a child because he did not inherit the powers of his parents. Soon this news reached our 3 wizard mages who gave Ryo’s parents two options. One is to abandon Ryo back into the world of mortals erasing his memory of our world or Do a sacrifice and let him posses magic like one among us. Our world has an option of inheriting magic through a contract made with a magical creature. It is like a give and take option. Where we give away something dear to us and gain magical powers and boons instead. Abandoning him was intolerable for Ryo’s parents so they opted to make a deal with a sea serpent who agreed to abide. The contract was marked in Ryo’s heart and the deal was that he would turn into a sea serpent on every blue moon night that occurred in a fortnight, when he turned 20.

Now, he was 20 and the contract period was meant to start. The beautiful lady from water was none other than Queen Pearleen who ruled the seas and resides in this enchanted sea of pearls. Also to her position, she was one among the 3 wizard mages who ruled upon our world. Ryo meets her every night as he believed there was a way to void his contract.

I froze in my place. It all sounded like a story and my senses were too shocked to accept this as a reality.

Ryo continued, “When I met you and saw how much you cared about me, I was pleased. I did notice the affection in your eyes every time you looked at me. I too wanted to love you with all my heart and live a happy life with you. But Claudia, it is impossible. You deserve some one better, someone who can make you happy and not a beast like me.” He closed his eyes and looked away in sorrow. When I saw him look away in pain, I decided no matter what happens we will face it together. Holding his hand I vowed to him, “I can’t promise if I can void this contract but I promise to be by your side my entire life, as your love, as you soul.” Ryo looked at me with eyes filled with tears of affection.

“What if there was something you can do”, Queen Pearleen’s voice interrupted us. “NO!” Ryo roared. “I don’t want her to be involved!” But I ran to Queen Pearleen leaving Ryo’s hands holding mine. “Your highness, If there is anything I can do to help Ryo please tell me. I wouldn’t mind doing anything at all if it promises him his life back.”

“A contract made is for life Claudia, but you can make another contract and alter his.” smiled the queen as she told me so.

“I wouldn’t mind at all if it can make him happy” I replied almost instantly.

“NO! Claudia please don’t do this!” Ryo demanded.

Gazing at him pleadingly, all I said was “…. Please Ryo, please let me do it”. Hesitantly, Ryo withdrew himself in resignation.

Suddenly from the waters came sounds of splashing, when I glanced I saw a beautiful mermaid settling down on a rock nearby.

“She is the one you have to make a contract with” spoke Queen Pearleen pointing at the beautiful mermaid.

“As you wish, your highness” replied the mermaid bowing her head.

“I am aquamarine, a mermaid of the seas. I will grant you the power to turn him back to his human form as and when he turns into a sea serpent with your kiss, if you promise me to offer flowers ever full moon day. But the contract would be written in the iris of your eyes and your iris would turn into aquamarine crystals as a sign of the contract.”

It was something I can do with any least effort. And if I did this deal I could save Ryo and at the same time be with him for life as it was only my kiss that could turn him back to his human form. With no other thought, I agreed.

In no time my iris turned into aquamarine crystals and a contract was made. Ryo who was watching everything in silence, broke down in tears. “I am sorry! I am very sorry to have put you through all this.”  I went close to him, lifted his chin till our gaze met. Instantly, Ryo’s expression turned into a daze as he looked into my eyes as I spoke to him “I love you Ryo, if we can be together forever that is the best I can wish for.” Ryo smiled back and said “Your eyes, it reflects the entire sea in them. I can see the depth of your love in them. I can feel your soul in them.” We both smiled and embraced each other as the stars shone upon us.

Love

Like sorrow and glee, love is a feel,

It has its ups and downs,

But different from other, emotions of all,

It’s different from one to another.

The ones in your dream and books that you read,

May not be the one you feel,

It’s confusing at times, and painful a while,

But the feeling in you, never die.

You might fight with the one, and fume like the sun,

And think you hate them so much,

But when you move on and fumes are all gone,

You would love them even more.

From person to person, from bond to bond,

Love differs in all its form,

Parental love and Godly love,

Are just the two of the forms.

Love in women, are so different from men,

Where men never believe to show,

While love in men, are so different from women,

Where women keep expecting more.

Though all the love is pure in its form,

It all emits from one’s heart alone,

But the love between two lover souls,

Are the most vibrant of all.

The phases of love are different too,

In spite of the age one’s in,

From coyness to smile, and gaze to ‘HI!”

To the times they are one from inside.

The love between a husband and wife,

Is the most magical to know,

Though they argue and fight, even on matters so light,

In the end a smile melts it all.

An emotion that keeps you happy and glee,

And makes you sad too at times,

Anger and fear has its roles too in here,

All together is called true love.

We are all loved in a form or another,

We should see it now or it’s never,

It’s confusing at times, as it’s not always smiles,

But the feeling of love is always there.

I wonder the reason, to why love is magic,

Of all the emotions good and bad,

But when all the feelings, come in together,

The magical love is in the air.

Lanterns of the night

When the sun goes down, and the lights are out,

From the shadows of the dark, creep the evils and the louts,

With nothing in vision, I crumbled in fear,

For anything could happen, from far or near.

As I veiled my head and shuddered in terror,

Small yellow lights twinkled there and here,

A zillion of them appeared and disappeared,

I gazed at them forgetting my fear.

‘Lanterns of night’ or ‘stars on the earth’

They spread their lights without any girth,

 Like jolly little bulbs they flew everywhere,

As if not a second they had to spare.

The fear in my heart had been washed away,

There was a touch of thrill and love in the air,

The darker the night the brighter they lit,

At times on me, they didn’t mind to sit.

Magical was it and romantic as well,

To add on to it there was this earthy smell,

The black blue velvety sky was above,

And in me was spawning desires of love.

Amidst these magical flying lights around,

And crickets and beetles making their sounds,

There was this full moon shining so bright,

Nothing was more romantic than this sight.

I wished he was there just right beside me,

Holding my hand and staring at me deep,

Whispering beautiful words of love,

Drifting away into our beautiful world.

I hugged myself wanting to be held,

A touch of his now would have made me melt,

I wanted to sit all glued to him,

Staring at this sky that was lit all dim.

A change to begin

We are born one day and would die on another,

Yet in the life we live, to be good we stutter,

We choose to be bad, we see in them pleasure,

Against anguish and pain, we chose money and leisure.

Our notions of empathy seems to have ceased to exist,

And our urges to help, now remains a mere gist,

Our sweet humble speeches have turned into yelps,

 Even Our babies are less humans, they act as whelps.

The harshness, the rudeness, the cruelty around,

The forcing, the hurting it seems to make us proud,

The agony, the pain and distress we see,

Are turning our tears into oceans and seas.

Among all the creations living on earth,

We humans are refined and intellect from birth,

Then why do we act as if devils have possessed,

Even though with all abilities we are blessed.

Why aren’t our abilities used for the good?

Why don’t we protect the animals in the woods?

Why can’t we bring smiles to our kind?

Why have our egotism made us blind?

Life can be more unpredictable as it can be,

If today we breathe, tomorrow our breath may cease,

Our smile this instant may in the next be a cry,

Yet choice to be harsh made me wonder why.

Is money or power our kind is seeking?

Greed and sadism has also been dominating,

But why don’t these people for once realise,

Its happiness they seek for nothing in compromise.

Killing and bloodshed can never make them happy,

Instead they will end up purely in agony,

It’s only good that can touch one’s heart,

Good and happiness, their lanes never part.

Do good, be good; think everything that’s good,

Happiness and peace will then remain where is should,

Every nook and corner of the world will smile,

Prosperity and happiness will begin to strive.

The entire world will not at once change,

This concept of good may be to them strange,

But a spark I suggest we can commence,

You and I can begin the difference.

                                                           

How i lived my dream

The sun was high and shining its light,

From among the trees it was out of my sight,

The heavy backpack I was carrying along,

Was denied gravity and so was testing my bones.

I had a stick with me to help me climb the slopes,

At times it took all my weight and raised my hopes,

A blend of joy and anxiety I felt abiding in me,

Helping me through all the obstacles I could imagine and see.

Chirping of the birds and smiling fresh pansies,

Running sounds of a creek were all from my fancies,

 I passed through a forest and a meadow I reached,

 To settle here, to my dream it was a breach.

Again I walked up those rocky slope trails,

Towards the peak of the mountain, without slowing my pace,

Finally I reached the spot that beckoned me all my life,

A small protrusion of land and above it was just the clear sky.

I rested my back pack and sat on the mud,

Inhaling in the air made me feel like a bud,

The freshness was deep and new to my lungs,

To add to the glory, here was this beautiful setting sun.

I quickly set my tent, as the night was coming,

A small fireplace I made, for heating and lighting,

I set it all up in a hurry for just a day I had,

To live my dream and cherish what I can.

When the night approached the scenery had changed,

There was this velvety night sky with sparkly diamonds attached,

In my dreams I saw this scenery a million times,

But none stood a chance in the one in front of my eyes.

I lay there relaxed on the bare muddy ground,

Gazing at these zillions of stars shining from beyond,

Though crickets and other insects tried breaking the silence,

The tune created was nothing but beyond perfection.

There was peace in the air and the perfect panorama to accolade,

Realizing this magical beauty, into sleep I slowly cascaded,

When I opened my eyes, I was lying in my bed,

‘Why am I here?’ I wondered in my head.

Soon enough I realized it was just my dream,

It wasn’t the first time I lived my fantasy in my sleep,

‘One day’ I thought as I relaxed myself in my head,

‘I will live my dream and wake up not on bed’.

Eternal love

I was sitting by the beach, gazing at the sea,

Watching the waves, run towards me,

With soft cold breeze, touching my face,

Playing with my curls and running away.

Dusk was the time and orange was the sky,

With shadows around, nothing felt more alive,

From one corner, the night crawled in,

And from the other, the day mixed in.

Magic in the air, while night and day paired,

I wonder why this magic, during the time they shared,

I realized it soon enough, a reason was there,

Their union in love was the magic in the air.

My thoughts took me to be one among the pair,

I felt their love touch me somewhere,

They wait for their beloved, every second of their lives,

And they embrace their love, when they unite.

For the hours and minutes of wait they do,

Their time in unity is pitiably few,

But still without a word of complain,

They wait for each other, deep in love like insane.

Their love started from the beginning of time,

I wonder how it flourished all this while,

Though decades and eras have passed away,

Not a nip of their feeling has slightly changed.

Extreme reveres are day and night,

Yet even though how do they not fight?

What makes them so deeply in love?

That even time could not bring a change in them.

The wait they do for each other in time,

Should be the reason, I slowly realize,

For they don’t have the time to complain and fight,

They embrace each other when they meet, every time.

How pure and earnest is this love I see,

I sense their love, spreading in me,

They loved each other from the beginning of time

And will continue to love for eternity in time.

An incomplete love

I am a ball of fire, living up in the sky.

I am called the sun, as I always shine.

I rise from the mountains and sets into the seas,

And throughout the day I touch all gazing me.

Since the time I remember, I did the same,

It was rising and setting and shining my rays.

But one day, it happened that she caught my eyes,

I was stunned and staring for the very first time.

In a green meadow of a garden I think,

I saw her stand there in red and pink,

Bright she looked, from the rest of the flowers

May be that’s why, she was isolated from other.

Her velvety red petals, with hues of pink,

I was at loss of words, and all I did was blink,

She smiled at me, with her head held high,

The feeling I had was, “That rose is mine!”

Every day I would, gawk at her smile,

With my rays I touch her, and watch her shine,

Nights were the time, I hated the most,

A second without her, made me feel lost.

But one day, as we exchanged our gaze,

We were disrupted by a cloud, turning gray,

I was shocked, stunned and angry at her,

Why wouldn’t she allow me to see my girl?

With thunders and lightning she screeched at me,

“ENOUGH OF HER, For once notice me!”

I was baffled and dazed for a second or so,

But then I declared “I love the rose more.”

With lifeless eyes, she stared at me,

In her eyes I could sense her agony,

Tears rolled as rain, from her inert eyes,

I felt her pain, but helpless was I.

For a second or so, I forgot my rose,

I touched her rain, to console her soul,

But as I touched her pained tear drops,

Like magic my rays were white no more.

Seven colours, appeared as a bow,

It showed my love, her agony and more,

My child, I thought this rainbow was,

I looked at the cloud but she was no more.

Flustered I turned back to my rainbow,

But to my shock, my child too was gone,

Back to my senses I searched for my rose,

But all I saw was her lifeless thorns.

I lost my child along with his mother,

And also my soul alongside my lover,

Lonely I felt deep down my heart,

But here I am, now doing my part.

A pained heart

I was a droplet of water living in the sea,

Frolicking through the waves passing me,

Blushing at the cold breeze that scuttle away,

Giggling every time it touches me.

I swam with the fishes and jumped with the dolphins,

Plunging myself deeper into the sea,

But every time, the waters pushed me back,

Murmuring, about my destiny.

I was the smallest it seems, the lightest in the team,

So they said I was not meant for the deep,

But for the sky, I was told to fly

And was destined to reach new heights.

Confused was I and wondering why,

Was I treated so very differently?

For I too was a droplet, a water droplet,

Then why was I meant for the sky?

Confused and in pain, I looked up in vain

To be astound by my new sight,

There was this blue space, spread in my gaze,

Bigger than anything I saw my whole life.

From the corner of my sight, something bright caught my eye

And I saw him there for the first time,

My yellow ball of fire, shining brightly as ever,

Filling me with feelings of love and desire.

I forgot my world, the confusion and the hurt,

Only he stood bright in my eyes,

For the very first time, I felt this was a sign,

And wanted to make him all mine.

As an answer to my prayers, I was engulfed in heat layers,

And suddenly I felt being light,

I was rising from the waters, to where my heart desires,

I was changing my form to pure white.

I was closer to him now, flying in this new form,

I could just gape at him all the while,

I gawked at him from very close by,

And waited for him during the nights.

But all of these feelings were mine alone,

For he never noticed me at all,

I did all I could that any loving soul would

But he was busy ignoring me besides.

Gloomy I became and sad in pain,

Anger filled my inside,

My pure white manes where now turning grey

For the agony growing inside.

My limits were reached, ENOUGH! I screeched,

I shouted at him with all my might,

My thunders and lightning caught his attention

And I saw him astound for the first time.

With a cold gaze he gave me, he rejected me bluntly,

And I stood there blankly in fright.

I changed my form, and did everything for him alone,

And now he dejected me without a thought.

I wasted my life; I wanted to be his wife,

But he pushed me away without a sigh,

 I exploded in pain, and my tears flew as rain,

Till I became a memory in time.